To live knowing you cannot visit where you are originally from is a very difficult life. To live rejecting there from where you originally are is a very difficult life. When we think of nature, we think of all that is green or blue. What about that which is yellow…

I always get the urge to write you something or write something about you This urge grows when it is March and I am reminded of the day you were born March is one of my favorite months because of you Whether they call it March or Mars The month resembles…

I have been resisting the words that could come out of me during this period. I have been resisting them because I was scared and I still am. I held myself together for a while, I don’t remember the last time I cried for days in a row. They are…

This is the fifth time we meet up after being away from each other. This time, now that he is based in Istanbul, distance made the most sense. When he lived in Beirut, there was something silly about the distance and the borders that separated us. It all felt like…

They were my first drops of rain this year. I arrived to Istanbul at 5am on a Saturday in October to meet a lover I’ve been separated from for 8 long months. I have been waiting for this day ever since the world stopped and went into a lockdown. The…

It was our first encounter, the first time my eyes met with its immense blue ones. On a boat in Syria, I lost myself for the first time as my gaze narrowed focusing on the horizon questioning that which lies behind it. I was a daydreamer, in my dreams…

There’s a saying in Arabic that goes like “ complain to the sea your worries and don’t humiliate yourself with humans”. In my city, there is no sea. I sit drowning in all my concerns; like their weight is pulling me downwards as i helplessly gasp for air. Yet still…

In many circumstances, I find it hard to say “I have learned that..”, and find it easier to say “I’ve come to realize that..’’. To realize is to become fully aware of something as a fact which could possibly mean that you somehow knew about this thing but was not…

do you notice anything else? we zoom in most times we are too much in our heads its like having our picture taken in front of a famous monument so that all we can see is ourselves and it we often forget to zoom out to see that at that moment frozen…